Ernakulathappan & I (2025)
There is one prayer I oft repeat coz of this understanding…which beseeches the higher power to allow me to be born again as a devotee of Lord Parameswara/Siva.
(Shareeram shastra meemamse, devastu Parameswaraha, Acharya Shankaracharya, Dehime janma janmani.)
I have told the Moothaths of Ernakulathappan that I envy them immensely as they walk around the temple holding Him. They are His mobile units!
And I have said to some Melsanthi’s that I envy their ability to offer pooja to Him.
The keezhshanthis who get to dress Him and feed Him are oh! so blessed.
And ofcourse the tantris… I have told Gireeshan Namboodiripad that he is so lucky to act as His father!!
Whom am I to Him?
Like Harish said the other day, one among His millions of devotees.
But that is Harish’s opinion. I consider myself His dear daughter. The one who gets to hug Him, kiss Him, scold Him and ask unabashedly Him to fulfil my wants.
Radhakrishnaji (music director) said, just stand in front of Him. He knows what to do for you. Don’t ask.
But I ask.
I have asked Him atrocious things like taking me to Kasi and silly things like give me the jasmine flowers you are wearing (during Ulsavam).*
And He has never said No.
I might not visit Him daily. But I do have Him with me all along. On my keychain, inside the pooja room, on my book shelf, as my Lock Screen & in my first words before I venture doing anything new.
Here’s to a new year at His service.
BTW, His Ulsavam is coming and I really don’t know His plans. I seem to be doing nothing. I am not supposed to be bothered, but I am! Trusting does not come easy, even when proof has been given. Looks like I still prefer running up and down the aisle of a flying plane to help it reach its destination! 🤣
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* I could not enter the temple after His kazhcha Sheeveli. And I had forgotten I had asked for it. The crowds of devotees are restricted from entry. But He send it through the chief percussionist of the day!🥹
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